That's it. All this time I have been the ostrich in the sand when I was swearing there were others acting as ostriches.
I haven't been writing publicly in years. It happened when I interviewed Kevin McCarthy back in the 80's. It was awesome, but I felt so powerless as I was a 2nd choice for interviewing him and the questions were pre-printed on a piece of white paper...and all I could do was go through them hating myself for not asking him really cool questions that I wanted to ask!
Like, why are you wearing a tie? You're an actor, you can wear whatever you want and get by with it!
Why did you bother to come to Memphis? Why not a bigger city (it wasn't very big in the 80's)? Why this school? Why are you putting up with my horribly boring interview?
Oh I was scarred and since then, stopped making an attempt to publicly show my writings. I was cautious. I decided that it was better to keep my writings than face ridicule.
Now, over 20 years later, I have decided that Bogota has changed my life in more ways than I could describe. One major change, as Captain Ron would say in the movie, Captain Ron, "...if it is going to happen, it's going to happn out there."
I have been admiring writers. Now I should no longer be an ostrich and admire my own writings. Publicly. And be fearless when I write (but still keep it a bit clean).
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